It is really strange that I find myself writing, 'cos im not a literary kind of person..why, you may ask..well, IT got to do with a girl..yah, a girl i like/LOVE, hahaha..(unsa inyu pagto-o lalakwi? haha again)..and YES, it didnt go well 'cos she has decided that we're "really good friends" and wants to leave things the way they are..ouch! (God Almighty must have His 'ol dirty pranks played on me, sorry) hehe..yeah, basted ko! It was really bitter (murag gipas-an nimu ang kalibutan), i cant do my daily chores,. life seems to have no meaning anymore 'cos you see i really love her..tsktsk..

My idea is we have built this wonderful friendship, lets both put some effort into this and see what else can develop. She's contemplating this, and I feel foolish like I have said we need to have a romantic relationship or I won't be your friend.. With both of us at opposite ends of the spectrum, I'm just not seeing how we can compromise. Well, I cant blame her, in fact there was no one to blame, I was expecting too much from the start and she have her reasons..she felt guilty, and i felt for her too..with that i say to myself that i shouldnt be so selfish..she have her reasons and i must respect that..she said that "you will soon recover..it's 'JUST A PHASE'.." and i agree with her...

For whatever reason, i certainly must not take it personally. That would be stupid and self-destructive. I see absolutely NO REASON for me to feel foolish, for me to take the risk. Yes risk, Why? (ayna kapoy explain hehe) OK, sure, fools take risks. But only people who take risks ever end up getting what they truly want. And so I will, ultimately, but maybe just not with her for now, still i'll be around and having that feelings for her..well, here's hoping!